#StoryTuesday: Suicide Note (Final Chapter)

Few weeks ago we began a new story on our #StoryTuesday series. The story is titled ' Suicide Note' and today we have come to the end of this interesting story. Here is the link to Page Nine in case you missed it. Continue reading page ten below
I remembered the day my dad and mum fought because my dad had called my twin brother a bastard and as I began to remember all these things the more I started to feel guilty. I still blamed him for everything that had gone wrong in my life and I still went ahead to kill him and his family. 


I sat on their couch for few minutes thinking about my next moves, I had finally gotten the answer I have been searching for and it wasn’t what I was expecting. It was at that moment I agreed with the phrase some things are rather left unsaid, not every answer is pleasant to the ear and this definitely wasn’t pleasant. I thought he was the reason why I have become messed up but I have now found out that my mum, whom I love dearly and I pity so much is the one to be blamed for the way her life and mine turned out and still there is a new question to be asked, who exactly is my father?.
  
I couldn’t just let them go, they have seen my face and they can always go to the police, I don’t want to go to jail, I still want to find my real father, so I did the one thing I came there to do, I went to the kitchen, turn on the gas and came back to the living room, I revealed myself to them, my supposed dad tried to apologize but I wasn’t willing to hear anything from him, I told him to keep quite if he doesn’t what me to shoot him. As the gas started to choke the children I got up walked to the door then light the match I had taken from the kitchen. 

I hid myself where no one would see me as I watch the house burn while I was also trying to calm myself from the injury I sustain too. My hand hasn’t properly healed, I still feel the pain but that would end soon, I have thought about this day very much and I have come to the same conclusion, Benson Afolabi Richard has to die, there is nothing left for me in this life, I burnt the only man I knew as my father alive along with his family, I almost killed my mother whom I have always held in high esteem and my twin brother is now constantly criticizing me for everything I did, so tell me what kind of life I still want to live. 

If you have been reading this from the beginning you already know it’s too late to help, now that you know my story I would say it’s okay for you to judge me, I know I made some terrible mistakes, I took so many wrong turns in my life and instead of me to fix up my life I kept looking for who to blame but now I have no one else to blame but myself and that burden is too much for me to bear that's why I have decided to take my life so before the poison  have taken kicks in let me quickly tender my apologies to the following  people that I have. 

I am sorry mum, I apologise for hitting you hard that you had to be hospitalize, I would never forgive myself for that, I just hope one day you will find it in your heart to forgive me. I would never understand why you hid the truth about my real dad from me or why you choose not to tell me the truth about…………………………….

THE END